The Rollercoaster Ride

February 24, 2009

I used to love rollercoasters. I even have a picture of me and my grandpa on a stand up roller coaster at a theme park when I was about 10 years old. I mean, I loved them. I don’t know what happened. But, now rollercoasters are on my top 10 least favorite things. I will stand in line for hours with my friends when we go to theme parks, all the way up to where you board the rollercoaster and then I will gladly take their wallets, glasses, flip flops, and keys to hold while they enjoy the ride.

My least favorite part is that first big hill…you know the one. The one where all you hear is “click, click, click”…You can’t see where the top of the hill is and so every second of the way up you are bracing yourself for the plummeting fall. I love it after that. I love going upside down and twisting and turning, but I just can’t make it past the hill.

This is where we are in the adoption process. We have stood in line to get ready for the “ride”. Now here we are, we have boarded the ride, and there is no turning back. We are going up the “big hill”, never knowing when the actual “fun”(aka. finally going to bring our baby home) is going to begin. And I have to tell you, I hate this part. Mostly because I just don’t know what is going to happen and when it is going to happen. Do you notice a theme in my posts – airplanes, rollercoasters…do you think God is trying to teach me something about control?? 🙂

But, the reality is, we did just get some not so great news from our agency. We received an email this past weekend to all of the families adopting from Russia from our agency: “It is the understanding of Joint Council that (a bill was presented) before the Russian Committee on International Relations which calls for a temporary moratorium on U.S. adoptions from Russia. (It has been) argued that U.S. controls are insufficient in protecting children adopted from Russia.”

This was from the JCICS (which is an international adoption advocacy organization). We have been told that many bills like this have been presented before to the Russian committees and have not moved past the “discussion phase”. So they are cautiously hopeful that this bill will also not make it through. But, this is where the trusting gets tough.

I thought it was difficult trusting God during our infertility, but then He led us to international adoption. I thought it was difficult trusting God with raising our money for the adoption, but He continues to provide abundantly. I thought it was difficult trusting God during the waiting, but then He gave us a peace that passed all understanding.

So here we are, close to ur financial goal, hearts full of love for this baby that we do not yet know…and there is a chance of us being back at square one. God has proven to us that He is trustworthy and that He is directing our path. But, it gets tough when the pathway is broken or the signs are unclear. So we trust…we trust more than we ever have before and we are asking God to give us the faith that we can’t muster up in our own strength.

This is why our God is so amazing…because He gives faith to those have no more faith. He gives hope to the hopeless. He gives peace to the unrest. So, please pray.

Prayer Requests:

  • Pray that this bill will not go through and that the advocates for international adoption in Russia will speak with clarity and persistence.
  • Pray for those that are making decisions – the government agencies, the judges, the courts, the committees…that they would see international adoption as a positive alternative for their beautiful children.

We so appreciate your prayers and are so grateful to know of all of the people in our lives who are in this with us, who are cheering for us, and who are so desperately wanting our little one to be a part of our family. We are so grateful for the support system that God has given us. We are deeply and richly blessed. Most of the updates are in this post, so we won’t bullet point them this week. Just pray as you feel led and we will keep you updated on the status of the decisions in Russia.

Until next week, love, Steve and kate

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3 Responses to “The Rollercoaster Ride”

  1. Mom said

    Let’s hang in there girl! The ride will be worth it!

  2. Lisa said

    Your roller coaster analogy is great!! The big hill is the greatest thrill especially when you are not in the front car. God has the front car and He alone knows when your big day will come. Like all other uncertainties in life, we are called to stay seated until the ride has come to a full and complete stop. That definitely doesn’t take away the “pit in your stomach” feeling. But we can know that the anticipation will pay off with “take your breath away” moments if we just hang on and stay securely strapped in. Hang on for dear life – the moment will come when those of us in the cars behind you will see your arms go up in shear abandon as you experience the coaster’s biggest thrill. We’ll be following your lead and admiring your bravery for getting on the ride in the first place and for giving us the privilege of experiencing a small part of it with you! Love you guys!!

  3. Angela Johnson said

    Steve & Kate,

    Our hearts are so full of excitement for you…

    This song popped in my head as I read your note today…

    “So I’ll wait upon you now with my hands released to you, where a little faith’s enough to see mountains lift and move. And I’ll wait upon you now dedicated to your will, to this love that will remain, a love that never fails.” Second Chance– Hillsong United

    The Lord has used this song so many times to encourage our hearts…

    We will continue to pray for God’s peace in the wait… there is so much supernatural power in this place.

    Love,
    Cliff and Ange

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